Tengok title atas tu mungkin some of the TTCians memahaminya.
Yes I am on my 1day post 3 days transfer.
Yes saya telah pun selamat menjalani ICSI saya yg pertama and now on my 2ww period.
Alhamdulillah Allah telah mempermudahkan segala-galanya setakat ini dan harapnya selepas ni pon sama.
As per my last entry, my OPU is done last Friday.
And I am scheduled at 7 am! Gile awal!
Arrived at around 645 am dekat Level 2. Admission procedure dah buat on last Wednesday.
My mom pon insist nak ikut jugak pegi. Doa ibu tu sangat2 penting ya!
Since KL Fert ni takde ward sendiri, they tumpang KL Sports Hospital punya ward.
I was told earlier by my nurse councellor not to wear jewellery, cosmetics or any strong scents products for the procedure.
So mandi air kosong je la kite.
Puasa pon start dr kol 12 tgh mlm sblom tu.
Sbb sampai awal, ward tak bukak lg so we stayed at the ground floor tu kejap.
Mulut ni tak berhenti2 berzikir dan baca surah Al-fatihah sbb takut sgt.
I ols ni sgt takutkan jarum, dah 2 kali operate gula naik gile babi sbb nobes sgt!
7 am sharp kami naik ke tkt 2. And the room is ready for me!
Sumpah besar giler single room dia siap ada sofa!
Alamak takley lak nak attach pic lak pakai phone ni. Later la iols update gambor ya!
Nurse bg uniform utk ditukarkan before ke OT.
After tukar, the Anaesthetists pon dtg utk bg briefing of the bius procedure.
Since I have 2 experienced before this dia just explain yg it is not really a fully bius but i will be put in a very deep sleep.
Then operasi meletak jarum kat tangan. Yg ni mmg selalu bermasalah.
Urat belah kiri tak jumpa. Pindah kanan.
Cucuk ke tangan memula tp urat tu tendang jarum tu balik.
Sakit gila ok!!!! And mmg masa tu siap ckp sakit sakit.
Then tukar pegi kt lengan plak. Nasib jumpa.
Again tahan lagi sakit!!
Mula lah time tu pk dugaan apakah ini?
Then Dr Helena pon dtg. She's beautiful I tell u.
She explained what is going to happen in the OT.
By 720 am I was ald in the OT.
The anaesthetists came again and put the medicine.
Pastu Im gone!
Sedar2 Dr Helena senyum and said I managed to take 9 beautiful eggs from u!
And the nurse pushed me to the room.
Masa tu pukul 745 am.
Pastu i tertido jap smp kol 815am sbb the BP machine kept on taking my bp automatically mmg susah la nak tido.
By 930 am, they gave me my breakfast.
By 10 am, Iols dah ke toilet and changed.
I need to go back to level 6 and get my medicine and MC.
Jumpa dr Helena and she told I got 9 good eggs and I need to come back on Monday for the Embrio transfer.
Took my medicine and went straight home sbb ada rasa cramp sana sini.
Sampai rumah the cramped became worst.
Sumpah takut OHSS masa ni.
Contacted the nurse councellor and she told me to take the panadol.
Lps makan panadol, I terus tertido. And bila bangun Alhamdulillah dah kurang sakit dia.
Dari Jumaat till Sunday I just rest at home.
Baring, solat, makan.
Will continue my ET day on my next entry ya!
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Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
#14 Road to ICSI - I am near there!
CD 6 - TVS session with Dr. T again.
Appointment at 1215 pm.
Arrived at around 1150 am and the nurse asked me to go and have lunch first as there is around 6 other patient more.
And I managed to see doctor at around 115 pm.
DH have to passed his Friday prayers on this.
So straight away Dr. T did the TVS.
Found 8 follicles between 10-11mm in sizes.
A bit faster than normal 8-10mm.
Dr. T prescribed me with lower dosage of Puregon, Humog and to start with Orgalutron.
Gosh!
Dr. T expect my OOC / OPU to be schedule next Wednesday but that is all depend on my next TVS which is yesterday (Monday).
So headed back to KL Fert yesterday.
Appointment suppose at 1130 am but I arrived around 11 am.
Met Puan Stroberi there and I was shocked at first coz someone called up my name there!
Nice meeting you though it is just a quick one and good luck on your IUI tomorrow!
This time didn't wait for too long, at around 1115 am my name was called.
Again, straight away to TVS.
Same numbers of follicles = 8 but only 2 in 18mm sizes. 2 at around 13mm. 1 at 15mm and 3 around 11mm.
Dr. T decided to postpone the OPU to next Friday.
Sedih sekejap sbb Rabu tu hari Wukuf kot. Hari doa mustajab.
Lagi sedih bila hari Jumaat tu Dr. T takde to do the procedure.
It will be replace with Dr. Helena.
So Dr. T asked me to continue with Puregon (lower dosage), Humog and Orgalutron till tonite.
Tomorrow I need to do another TVS.
If OPU on Friday, then my transfer will likely be on next Monday (3 days transfer) or Wednesday (5 days transfer).
May Allah ease my journey. Aamiin.
Cost CD 6 - RM 5,000 (2nd payment)
Cost CD 9 - RM 575.60 (for extra Puregon and Humog which is not in the package for day 9/10)
Total - RM 5,575.60
Total paid so far for ICSI treatment and not including my passed appointments before stimulation starts = RM 11,065,60.
Appointment at 1215 pm.
Arrived at around 1150 am and the nurse asked me to go and have lunch first as there is around 6 other patient more.
And I managed to see doctor at around 115 pm.
DH have to passed his Friday prayers on this.
So straight away Dr. T did the TVS.
Found 8 follicles between 10-11mm in sizes.
A bit faster than normal 8-10mm.
Dr. T prescribed me with lower dosage of Puregon, Humog and to start with Orgalutron.
Gosh!
Dr. T expect my OOC / OPU to be schedule next Wednesday but that is all depend on my next TVS which is yesterday (Monday).
So headed back to KL Fert yesterday.
Appointment suppose at 1130 am but I arrived around 11 am.
Met Puan Stroberi there and I was shocked at first coz someone called up my name there!
Nice meeting you though it is just a quick one and good luck on your IUI tomorrow!
This time didn't wait for too long, at around 1115 am my name was called.
Again, straight away to TVS.
Same numbers of follicles = 8 but only 2 in 18mm sizes. 2 at around 13mm. 1 at 15mm and 3 around 11mm.
Dr. T decided to postpone the OPU to next Friday.
Sedih sekejap sbb Rabu tu hari Wukuf kot. Hari doa mustajab.
Lagi sedih bila hari Jumaat tu Dr. T takde to do the procedure.
It will be replace with Dr. Helena.
So Dr. T asked me to continue with Puregon (lower dosage), Humog and Orgalutron till tonite.
Tomorrow I need to do another TVS.
If OPU on Friday, then my transfer will likely be on next Monday (3 days transfer) or Wednesday (5 days transfer).
May Allah ease my journey. Aamiin.
Cost CD 6 - RM 5,000 (2nd payment)
Cost CD 9 - RM 575.60 (for extra Puregon and Humog which is not in the package for day 9/10)
Total - RM 5,575.60
Total paid so far for ICSI treatment and not including my passed appointments before stimulation starts = RM 11,065,60.
Thursday, September 17, 2015
#13 Road to ICSI - The REAL journey has started..
Oh yes!
Got my CD 1 on last Sunday 13 Sept 2015. Afternoon pulak tu.
So can't call KL Fert as it is close on Sunday.
Gotta try my luck to make the appointment the next day.
Malam tu jenuh lah berdoa mintak Allah permudahkan semuanya.
Mintak jgk dpt buat appointment on CD 2.
So on Monday morning tu pukul 8.15 am (klinik bukak pukul 8 am), Iols gigih lah call KL Fert.
Told them I got my CD 1 semlm and want to have appt dgn Dr. hari ni (14 Sept).
Knowing that Dr. T hari Isnin petang selalunya dia dekat Pusrawi, berpeluh jugaklah rasanya bila nurse suruh tunggu for her to check.
"Ok, you can come at 1115 am today!"
Alhamdulillah.. Allah dah mudahkan the 1st step.
So siap cepat2, terus ke KL fert.
Arrived dlm pukul 11 am camtu. Boleh tahan ramai jugak orang hari ni.
Waited till 12 pm baru dapat jumpa Dr. T.
She checked on my sugar level record and she was happy about that.
Continued with the TVS.
Lagi sekali rasa jantung nak roboh.
Right ovary - 4 to 5 follicles seen.
Left ovary - 4 follicles seen.
In total around 9 follicles!
Ya Allah, tak tau nak ckp apa.. sbb Dr. T mmg happy sgt and she gave me a real big and sweetest smile.
And then she said, "Ok, you can start your injection today. Kejap lagi pergi buat test LH and FSH. Also I need your HAC1 (Hemoglobin if im not wrong) and Vit D as well."
I gave her 1 big smile and honestly I felt relieved!
After all the hurdles since we started seeing her on last March, and finally my body is totally ready for it!
Alhamdulillah, Allah memang permudahkan segala urusan I hari tu.
So went out, gave them my blood, went for lunch with DH dekat Menara UOA tu.
At around 2 pm, nurse Nabilah pon panggil with the blood test result and of course all my medications!
Alhamdulillah my LH and FSH seems normal so I was prescribed with a very minimum medications till CD 5 whereby on CD 6 (tomorrow) I need to come back and see Dr. T again.
Got my CD 1 on last Sunday 13 Sept 2015. Afternoon pulak tu.
So can't call KL Fert as it is close on Sunday.
Gotta try my luck to make the appointment the next day.
Malam tu jenuh lah berdoa mintak Allah permudahkan semuanya.
Mintak jgk dpt buat appointment on CD 2.
So on Monday morning tu pukul 8.15 am (klinik bukak pukul 8 am), Iols gigih lah call KL Fert.
Told them I got my CD 1 semlm and want to have appt dgn Dr. hari ni (14 Sept).
Knowing that Dr. T hari Isnin petang selalunya dia dekat Pusrawi, berpeluh jugaklah rasanya bila nurse suruh tunggu for her to check.
"Ok, you can come at 1115 am today!"
Alhamdulillah.. Allah dah mudahkan the 1st step.
So siap cepat2, terus ke KL fert.
Arrived dlm pukul 11 am camtu. Boleh tahan ramai jugak orang hari ni.
Waited till 12 pm baru dapat jumpa Dr. T.
She checked on my sugar level record and she was happy about that.
Continued with the TVS.
Lagi sekali rasa jantung nak roboh.
Right ovary - 4 to 5 follicles seen.
Left ovary - 4 follicles seen.
In total around 9 follicles!
Ya Allah, tak tau nak ckp apa.. sbb Dr. T mmg happy sgt and she gave me a real big and sweetest smile.
And then she said, "Ok, you can start your injection today. Kejap lagi pergi buat test LH and FSH. Also I need your HAC1 (Hemoglobin if im not wrong) and Vit D as well."
I gave her 1 big smile and honestly I felt relieved!
After all the hurdles since we started seeing her on last March, and finally my body is totally ready for it!
Alhamdulillah, Allah memang permudahkan segala urusan I hari tu.
So went out, gave them my blood, went for lunch with DH dekat Menara UOA tu.
At around 2 pm, nurse Nabilah pon panggil with the blood test result and of course all my medications!
Alhamdulillah my LH and FSH seems normal so I was prescribed with a very minimum medications till CD 5 whereby on CD 6 (tomorrow) I need to come back and see Dr. T again.
I was given 3 box of Puregon 400 unit with 1 Humog.
The first shot of Puregon was given at the clinic masa proses pembelajaran cucuk2.
DH is definitely going to do all of it.
Nurse Nabilah also brief us on what to do next until CD 6.
Cost - RM 5K (IVF pakej including medication, consultation, LH and FSH test)
RM 330 (Vit D blood test)
RM 160 (HAC1 blood test)
Total RM 5490.00
Friday, May 15, 2015
#7 Road to ICSI - Days Post Laparoscopy
It's been 8 days after my laps is done and I am now still on my MC.
Phew!
5 hours in the operation hours ya all!
Dah macam open surgery dah rasanya but Alhamdulillah it went well.
Dr. removed all my fibroids which I haven't got the exact amount how many of them yet.
He cleansed my tubes and return my right ovary to where it should be.
Thank God both tubes are not block!
Besok follow up check up dgn Dr. KB Ng to get the whole story what has been taken off from my tummy.
Nanti I write the whole procedure in my next entry after dpt full report dr Dr.
Phew!
5 hours in the operation hours ya all!
Dah macam open surgery dah rasanya but Alhamdulillah it went well.
Dr. removed all my fibroids which I haven't got the exact amount how many of them yet.
He cleansed my tubes and return my right ovary to where it should be.
Thank God both tubes are not block!
Besok follow up check up dgn Dr. KB Ng to get the whole story what has been taken off from my tummy.
Nanti I write the whole procedure in my next entry after dpt full report dr Dr.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
#6 Road to ICSI - Laparoscopy
Hello.
Lupa nak update lps jumpa Dr. Natasha last week on my CD 2.
Tah macamana boleh awal sehari pulak cycle bulan ni and my CD 1 falls on Sunday!
Camne nak buat appointment dengan clinic yang tutup?
So I pon gigih pepagi tu email Dr. Tasha and told her that I got my period that day and I need to see her on the next day.
I think lepas 2 hours kot Dr Tasha replied my mail and she said just come the next day at 10-11 am dekat KL Fert.
Pepagi Monday tu dah terpacak kat KL Fert and dpt turn no 2.
Masa tu tak ramai orang lagi and by 1030am dah dpt jumpa Dr.
As usual start with TVS.
Dr found 4 on my left ovary and on my right got 2 follicles itupon selepas Dr struggle to find my right ovary.
It has been blocked or maybe pushed slightly up due to my fibroid (s).
She asked for USG pulak but I was not full bladder.
Tapi try la jugak.
Yang nampak fibroid itupon tak jelas.
Dr asked me to go and have a drink bagi penuh bladder and come back after 45 minutes.
Dah puas minum, masuk la lagi sekali.
Still sama jugak. Right ovary tetap tak nampak.
And again, Dr suruh tambah lagi minum.
Mek masa tu dah nak terkencing sgt kot!
Waited for another 30 minutes before masuk lagi sekali.
And again, Dr buat USG.
Still, my right ovary tak nampak but fibroid is clearly seen 2.5cm X 2 cm in size.
So Dr advise not to proceed with IVF sebab dia takut fibroid tu akan mengganggu process embrio transfer nnt eventhough the fibroid is not in the uterus tp location dia memang tgh2 rahim tu.
She advised me to go for laparoscopy and referred me to Dr. Ng Kwee Boon at Tung Shin Hospital.
King of Laparoscopy katanya.
Ya Allah, masa tu Tuhan aje tau apa I rasa.
My heart broke into pieces knowing that I have to postpone my IVF bila I rasa I dah cukup bersedia utk itu.
Keluar je dr bilik Dr. Tasha, we both went for a quick lunch sbb I mmg lapar tp masa tunggu food smp memang menangis la I kat restaurant yg penuh orang tu.
Ado aku kesah?
As usual, DH mmg tenang. He comfort me by saying, my health is way more important to him rather than having a child right now.
Dia nak I pegi jumpa Dr. KB Ng tu jgk (which is today).
After 1 week thinking, I decided utk gagahkan jugak diri pegi jumpa Dr. KB Ng.
So tadi ke Tung Shin la I with DH.
Around 1030 am dpt jumpa Dr. 1st patient.
1st, Dr KB did USG.
Obviously mmg ada la fibroid tu. 2 biji tapi kecik.
Dr ckp by right the fibroid tak mengganggu rahim pon and shouldn't be a problem utk IVF tapi Dr. KB ckp jugak if pregnant, masa tu nanti ada masalah.
Dia pon tertanya jugak kenapa Dr. Tasha tulis dlm referral letter to that she worried there is a problem during the Embrio Transfer.
So Dr. KB asked to do a TVS.
Nah.. kat sini baru nampak clear kenapa Dr. Tasha mintak remove the fibroid.
I have 1 fibroid yg menghimpit laluan sperm ke rahim tu.
Size 3.5 cm x 3 cm kot.
Terus la Dr. ckp better laparoscopy when all the size is still small.
I asked when?
He said, the soonest this Thursday!
I pandang DH, DH looked at me.
Then DH asked, how long to recover.. Dr ckp seminggu dah ok dah.
Dok spital pon 1 nite je.
How much is the cost?
RM 9 K++.
Again kami berpandangan. Told the Dr that my insurance does not cover anything related to fibroid after I had my surgery last time.
After few minutes of thinking, DH ckp buat je lah Khamis ni.
We also asked, after laps, when can we proceed with the IVF and Dr. KB said after 2 mths time.
But I can try naturally within that time.
Laparoscopy it is.
This time, I don't cry.
Strong me.
Please pray for me ya!
Semoga Allah permudahkan semua ini...
Nanti I update lagi lps Laps ya.
Total cost with Dr. Natasha - RM 180
Total cost with Dr. KB Ng - RM 243
Lupa nak update lps jumpa Dr. Natasha last week on my CD 2.
Tah macamana boleh awal sehari pulak cycle bulan ni and my CD 1 falls on Sunday!
Camne nak buat appointment dengan clinic yang tutup?
So I pon gigih pepagi tu email Dr. Tasha and told her that I got my period that day and I need to see her on the next day.
I think lepas 2 hours kot Dr Tasha replied my mail and she said just come the next day at 10-11 am dekat KL Fert.
Pepagi Monday tu dah terpacak kat KL Fert and dpt turn no 2.
Masa tu tak ramai orang lagi and by 1030am dah dpt jumpa Dr.
As usual start with TVS.
Dr found 4 on my left ovary and on my right got 2 follicles itupon selepas Dr struggle to find my right ovary.
It has been blocked or maybe pushed slightly up due to my fibroid (s).
She asked for USG pulak but I was not full bladder.
Tapi try la jugak.
Yang nampak fibroid itupon tak jelas.
Dr asked me to go and have a drink bagi penuh bladder and come back after 45 minutes.
Dah puas minum, masuk la lagi sekali.
Still sama jugak. Right ovary tetap tak nampak.
And again, Dr suruh tambah lagi minum.
Mek masa tu dah nak terkencing sgt kot!
Waited for another 30 minutes before masuk lagi sekali.
And again, Dr buat USG.
Still, my right ovary tak nampak but fibroid is clearly seen 2.5cm X 2 cm in size.
So Dr advise not to proceed with IVF sebab dia takut fibroid tu akan mengganggu process embrio transfer nnt eventhough the fibroid is not in the uterus tp location dia memang tgh2 rahim tu.
She advised me to go for laparoscopy and referred me to Dr. Ng Kwee Boon at Tung Shin Hospital.
King of Laparoscopy katanya.
Ya Allah, masa tu Tuhan aje tau apa I rasa.
My heart broke into pieces knowing that I have to postpone my IVF bila I rasa I dah cukup bersedia utk itu.
Keluar je dr bilik Dr. Tasha, we both went for a quick lunch sbb I mmg lapar tp masa tunggu food smp memang menangis la I kat restaurant yg penuh orang tu.
Ado aku kesah?
As usual, DH mmg tenang. He comfort me by saying, my health is way more important to him rather than having a child right now.
Dia nak I pegi jumpa Dr. KB Ng tu jgk (which is today).
After 1 week thinking, I decided utk gagahkan jugak diri pegi jumpa Dr. KB Ng.
So tadi ke Tung Shin la I with DH.
Around 1030 am dpt jumpa Dr. 1st patient.
1st, Dr KB did USG.
Obviously mmg ada la fibroid tu. 2 biji tapi kecik.
Dr ckp by right the fibroid tak mengganggu rahim pon and shouldn't be a problem utk IVF tapi Dr. KB ckp jugak if pregnant, masa tu nanti ada masalah.
Dia pon tertanya jugak kenapa Dr. Tasha tulis dlm referral letter to that she worried there is a problem during the Embrio Transfer.
So Dr. KB asked to do a TVS.
Nah.. kat sini baru nampak clear kenapa Dr. Tasha mintak remove the fibroid.
I have 1 fibroid yg menghimpit laluan sperm ke rahim tu.
Size 3.5 cm x 3 cm kot.
Terus la Dr. ckp better laparoscopy when all the size is still small.
I asked when?
He said, the soonest this Thursday!
I pandang DH, DH looked at me.
Then DH asked, how long to recover.. Dr ckp seminggu dah ok dah.
Dok spital pon 1 nite je.
How much is the cost?
RM 9 K++.
Again kami berpandangan. Told the Dr that my insurance does not cover anything related to fibroid after I had my surgery last time.
After few minutes of thinking, DH ckp buat je lah Khamis ni.
We also asked, after laps, when can we proceed with the IVF and Dr. KB said after 2 mths time.
But I can try naturally within that time.
Laparoscopy it is.
This time, I don't cry.
Strong me.
Please pray for me ya!
Semoga Allah permudahkan semua ini...
Nanti I update lagi lps Laps ya.
Total cost with Dr. Natasha - RM 180
Total cost with Dr. KB Ng - RM 243
Monday, April 20, 2015
#5 Road to ICSI - Comfortable
Been asking around to those people who already succeed with their IVF/ICSI procedure.
Lots of questions and tips asked.
But 1 thing for sure, BED REST is a must!
BED REST means u can't go to work, eat, pray all on the bed.
U are only allowed to go to the toilet and perform Solat of course.
Itupon Solat duduk.
Wow!
So being me, thinking wayyy outside the box, I told DH, we need to find a SOFA BED!
Bahahaha.
Apa kena mengena ayte?
DH pon pelik.
I told him, I can imagine myself lying on our bed, in the room, watching a 40" TV from far can get me bored to death.
And I want to rest in our living hall.
Lebih nyaman, got more sunlights, TV lagi besar, got DVD player, got PS4 and all kind of reason I could think of.
Manja me? Yeah, I know.
And to lie down on our sofa will not keep me comfortable.
DH rejected the idea of having a SOFA BED.
He even asked "Nak letak mana pulak sofa tu?"
I told him to remove 1 of the 3 seater sofa.
"Abis nak bagi sapa sofa tu?"
Ok, pening jap.
DH terus je ckp, beli katil single bujang tu je senang.
Dah abis pakai nanti boleh dismantle letak dlm stor.
Punah impian nak sofa baru.
Period.
Lots of questions and tips asked.
But 1 thing for sure, BED REST is a must!
BED REST means u can't go to work, eat, pray all on the bed.
U are only allowed to go to the toilet and perform Solat of course.
Itupon Solat duduk.
Wow!
So being me, thinking wayyy outside the box, I told DH, we need to find a SOFA BED!
Bahahaha.
Apa kena mengena ayte?
DH pon pelik.
I told him, I can imagine myself lying on our bed, in the room, watching a 40" TV from far can get me bored to death.
And I want to rest in our living hall.
Lebih nyaman, got more sunlights, TV lagi besar, got DVD player, got PS4 and all kind of reason I could think of.
Manja me? Yeah, I know.
And to lie down on our sofa will not keep me comfortable.
DH rejected the idea of having a SOFA BED.
He even asked "Nak letak mana pulak sofa tu?"
I told him to remove 1 of the 3 seater sofa.
"Abis nak bagi sapa sofa tu?"
Ok, pening jap.
DH terus je ckp, beli katil single bujang tu je senang.
Dah abis pakai nanti boleh dismantle letak dlm stor.
Punah impian nak sofa baru.
Period.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
#4 Road to ICSI - Telling people about ur IVF journey..
To some people, spreading the news about you and ur DH need IVF/ICSI just to get a baby is humiliating.
Eventually to them, others will have the thought that either one of u is having infertility problems.
Well for me, I want to take my TTC stories to another level.
To educate people out there that it is not our fault if we can't get the child of our own.
It is all about rezeki dari Allah SWT.
I want people out there to know that we both have tried all possible ways in order to get 1 child.
I don't want them to just assumed we both did nothing.
Besides, I know I am surrounded with good friends and families who always pray the best for me.
So I want them to pray for both of us on this IVF/ICSI journey.
Mana tau berkat doa families and kawan2 tu semua Allah SWT makbulkan.
We never know.
I know I am not ashamed for not being able to conceive on our own.
Itu semua ujian dari Allah SWT yang menunjukkan Allah SWT tu sayangkan kami berdua.
Being positive is all that I want to do now.
Keeping all the positive vibes around me.
I broke the news to my mom and sister.
DH broke the news to my SILs.
Only parents in law have no clue about it.
All the while pon they never make noise of it.
They always said rezeki tak sampai lagi.
But we will somehow tell them as well.
Nak mintak mereka doakan jugak.
The funny part, my mom, sister and SILs suruh buat kembar!
Hey igt senang nak main buat2?
So we need to explain to them on how the procedure.
Mintak diaorg doakan jugak.
Rasa bersyukur sangat family terdekat semuanya memahami and gave the support that we need.
Eventually to them, others will have the thought that either one of u is having infertility problems.
Well for me, I want to take my TTC stories to another level.
To educate people out there that it is not our fault if we can't get the child of our own.
It is all about rezeki dari Allah SWT.
I want people out there to know that we both have tried all possible ways in order to get 1 child.
I don't want them to just assumed we both did nothing.
Besides, I know I am surrounded with good friends and families who always pray the best for me.
So I want them to pray for both of us on this IVF/ICSI journey.
Mana tau berkat doa families and kawan2 tu semua Allah SWT makbulkan.
We never know.
I know I am not ashamed for not being able to conceive on our own.
Itu semua ujian dari Allah SWT yang menunjukkan Allah SWT tu sayangkan kami berdua.
Being positive is all that I want to do now.
Keeping all the positive vibes around me.
I broke the news to my mom and sister.
DH broke the news to my SILs.
Only parents in law have no clue about it.
All the while pon they never make noise of it.
They always said rezeki tak sampai lagi.
But we will somehow tell them as well.
Nak mintak mereka doakan jugak.
The funny part, my mom, sister and SILs suruh buat kembar!
Hey igt senang nak main buat2?
So we need to explain to them on how the procedure.
Mintak diaorg doakan jugak.
Rasa bersyukur sangat family terdekat semuanya memahami and gave the support that we need.
Kalau korang pulak macamana? U tell others or just keep it to yourself?
Monday, April 13, 2015
#3 Road to ICSI - CD 13 - 2nd Appointment with Dr. Tasha
I'm not too sure whether to be happy or to be sad.
So my 2nd appointment with Dr. Tasha was on last Saturday at KL Fertility Centre.
Arrived at 9 am.
Registered and waited for DH to do his thing, the Semen Analysis.
Still not many patient.
By 940 am, DH is done with his thing.
Kental masuk sesorang mamat tu.
Maybe because this is his 5th times of doing so.
My appointment is at 11 am so lepas send sample, we both walked across KL Fertility and looked for Subway for a quick breakkie.
By 1030 am naik balik KL Fertility and tetiba penuh and sesak sgt ruang menunggu tu!!
Berbilang kaum ada. Malays, Indian, Chinese and few mat saleh.
This make me realized that ramai lagi kat luar sana senasib..
Waited till 1140 am then baru dpt jumpa Dr.
First Dr explained the results of DH SA.
Nothing much different though.
He still had the abnormal shape problem so ICSI is definitely for us both.
Its time for my TVS.
Bismillah...
On my left side, Dr can see about 5 follicles.
Fibroid is still seen but she said its still quite far from the pathway.
So she really hope that it wont disturb during the procedure nanti.
Pusing punya pusing, the right one is no where to be seen.
Oh my!
Then she decided to use the USG.
Alamak!
My bladder is not full pulak tu.
So mmg tak nampak my right ovary.
Great just great.
I tak tau nak rasa happy ke sedih time ni.
Dr Tasha tried to cheer a bit by saying it is good progress since I only took supplements for a week and my number of eggs increased from 1 to 5.
So she asked us when we want to proceed with the procedure.
Without hesitation, both of us answered, anytime.
Dr decided to re-access on my next cycle and if it is good to go, she will proceed next cycle, else I have to wait until after raya.
Let's hope for the best ya!
Meanwhile, dok tgh berkira2 nak carik sofabed baru.
Imagining my life bed resting for 2/3 weeks dalam bilik je nanti, I can't do that.
So sofabed letak kat living hall so that I could watch TV on a bigger screen than the room would be much better.
DH ckp I kekwat.
Gila tak?
So my 2nd appointment with Dr. Tasha was on last Saturday at KL Fertility Centre.
Arrived at 9 am.
Registered and waited for DH to do his thing, the Semen Analysis.
Still not many patient.
By 940 am, DH is done with his thing.
Kental masuk sesorang mamat tu.
Maybe because this is his 5th times of doing so.
My appointment is at 11 am so lepas send sample, we both walked across KL Fertility and looked for Subway for a quick breakkie.
By 1030 am naik balik KL Fertility and tetiba penuh and sesak sgt ruang menunggu tu!!
Berbilang kaum ada. Malays, Indian, Chinese and few mat saleh.
This make me realized that ramai lagi kat luar sana senasib..
Waited till 1140 am then baru dpt jumpa Dr.
First Dr explained the results of DH SA.
Nothing much different though.
He still had the abnormal shape problem so ICSI is definitely for us both.
Its time for my TVS.
Bismillah...
On my left side, Dr can see about 5 follicles.
Fibroid is still seen but she said its still quite far from the pathway.
So she really hope that it wont disturb during the procedure nanti.
Pusing punya pusing, the right one is no where to be seen.
Oh my!
Then she decided to use the USG.
Alamak!
My bladder is not full pulak tu.
So mmg tak nampak my right ovary.
Great just great.
I tak tau nak rasa happy ke sedih time ni.
Dr Tasha tried to cheer a bit by saying it is good progress since I only took supplements for a week and my number of eggs increased from 1 to 5.
So she asked us when we want to proceed with the procedure.
Without hesitation, both of us answered, anytime.
Dr decided to re-access on my next cycle and if it is good to go, she will proceed next cycle, else I have to wait until after raya.
Let's hope for the best ya!
Meanwhile, dok tgh berkira2 nak carik sofabed baru.
Imagining my life bed resting for 2/3 weeks dalam bilik je nanti, I can't do that.
So sofabed letak kat living hall so that I could watch TV on a bigger screen than the room would be much better.
DH ckp I kekwat.
Gila tak?
Friday, April 10, 2015
#2 Road to ICSI - Bersediakah aku?
1. Persediaan Kesihatan
Esok, hari untuk Dr. Natasha re-access my condition.
She'll be worried if my number of follicles is not helping me.
Setiap hari, I've tried not to show DH on how I felt inside.
How scared I am if there's only 2 or 3 follicles inside me.
The most I had was 5 follicles during my IUI last year and that is with the help of Clomid.
Berat badan pon sekarang ni dah byk turun since my last IUI.
I lost 14kgs in total and now tinggal lagi 8kg nak kena kurangkan for the right BMI.
I've started to follow Dr. Tasha advise to take supplements like Asid Folic, Fish Oil, Co10 and Multivitamins.
So let's hope for the best in me!
2. Persediaan Mental
I am now 50-50.
Sometimes, I'm being positive but at times, I do afraid if it fails.
Whether I could accept the heart breaks.
Roller coaster of emotions.
But, DH has always been supportive.
Walaupon selalu kena hadap my mood swing.
Dia relax and cool je.
Even skang ni I tau sesgt yg dia pening kepala since the "BELOVED" government buat system minyak floating ni.
Itu pon belum tambah dgn problem staff dia yg hari2 dgn mcm2 kerenah.
I mmg tak kan amik tau pesal hal station dgn dia.
He still will do his best to take care of my feelings.
Walaupon kdg2 sakit hati jugak bila I je yg kena cari info for the fertility treatment ni and dia ley relax main game, but at the end DH ni mmg jenis YES je.
Dia ikut je apa I decide.
I think most of the guys mmg macam ni kan perangai dia.
Still rasa grateful jugak sbb dia nak jgk lah ikut kan and he will of course accompany me to every single appointment with the doctors.
Not forgetting the support that I get from my closest friends and my TTCians friends.
I read all the TTCians blogs yg dah pernah buat IVF/ICSI.
Some succeed in their 1st attempt. Some not.
So semua tuh buat I rasa confident with the decision to try the procedure.
To add to it, now I selalu dengar kat youtube / mp3 all the surah-surah dan doa utk mendapatkan zuriat instead of listening to my favorite songs.
I felt more calm of doing so.
Last week kan our 6th anniversary, since we already been doing readings on IVF/ICSI before I start with the treatment, we've both decided tema hadiah anniversary kali ni is US.
Meaning, kena beli hadiah utk 2-2 boleh guna.
Beli ni dgn harapan nanti kalau 2ww I tak ler sangap baring saje.
But main game sebenarnya dgn DH sebenarnya lagi stress.
So we shall see how nanti ya.
3. Persediaan Kewangan
Alhamdulillah, for the past few years after I got back from Jakarta, rezeki memang tak putus2 for both of us.
Masa buat decision to come back and work in KL, hati tu terasa jugak whether I could live as it is sbb duit oversea allowance dah tak de kan.
Sebelum ni masa dok kat Jakarta, I tak bawak pon my salary nye bank card ke sana.
DH simpankan. Online banking pon I deactivated.
Survived mmg dgn duit allowance je.
So just imagine bila balik keja kat sini, I lost like half of my income.
Tapi itulah, the more I spent on the fertility treatment, the more I get back.
Besides that, jangan kedekut dgn ur parents!
In my case, I have a mom only.
Tiap2 minggu bawak dia pegi makan kat tempat dia terasa nak makan.
If dia nak baju, I belikan dia baju or apa saja lah..
Kadang2 terdetik jugak "Bulan ni nye saving berkuranglah nmpknya" tp Alhamdulillah tak berlaku.
Mesti I akan dpt je side income dari memana and selalunya lebih dr apa yg I spent kat my mom.
Pastu bersedekah lah.
Give to those who in need.
RM 1 pon tak pe.
In my case, kalau g lepak kedai mamak tu, kalau tetiba org dtg mintak sedekah, mmg I tak bagi.
I tak percaya semua tu sbb byk case kan semua tu sindiket and they have physical ability utk buat kerja lain.
Kadang2 I siap suruh DH offer kerja kat station dia kalau dia tak buta lah.
What I do, time bukak FB tu, kalau ternampak org2 yg share post minta bantuan utk kos rawatan apa2 especially utk babies and toddlers, I will do online transfer direct.
Better that way. If kena tipu pon, itu between dia dgn Allah.
In Shaa Allah Tuhan akan give back to us the money that we spent berganda2.
So kalau untuk kos rawatan IVF/ICSI ni , In Shaa Allah we both are prepared.
4. Persediaan Cuti
Another great news, my CEO has approved my leave whenever I need it for the treatment.
But of course with condition.
Dia punya condition is simple, make sure I can be contacted at any time.
So memang bawak laptop ke mana saja la jawabnya lepas ni.
So what else?
Esok, hari untuk Dr. Natasha re-access my condition.
She'll be worried if my number of follicles is not helping me.
Setiap hari, I've tried not to show DH on how I felt inside.
How scared I am if there's only 2 or 3 follicles inside me.
The most I had was 5 follicles during my IUI last year and that is with the help of Clomid.
Berat badan pon sekarang ni dah byk turun since my last IUI.
I lost 14kgs in total and now tinggal lagi 8kg nak kena kurangkan for the right BMI.
I've started to follow Dr. Tasha advise to take supplements like Asid Folic, Fish Oil, Co10 and Multivitamins.
So let's hope for the best in me!
2. Persediaan Mental
I am now 50-50.
Sometimes, I'm being positive but at times, I do afraid if it fails.
Whether I could accept the heart breaks.
Roller coaster of emotions.
But, DH has always been supportive.
Walaupon selalu kena hadap my mood swing.
Dia relax and cool je.
Even skang ni I tau sesgt yg dia pening kepala since the "BELOVED" government buat system minyak floating ni.
Itu pon belum tambah dgn problem staff dia yg hari2 dgn mcm2 kerenah.
I mmg tak kan amik tau pesal hal station dgn dia.
He still will do his best to take care of my feelings.
Walaupon kdg2 sakit hati jugak bila I je yg kena cari info for the fertility treatment ni and dia ley relax main game, but at the end DH ni mmg jenis YES je.
Dia ikut je apa I decide.
I think most of the guys mmg macam ni kan perangai dia.
Still rasa grateful jugak sbb dia nak jgk lah ikut kan and he will of course accompany me to every single appointment with the doctors.
Not forgetting the support that I get from my closest friends and my TTCians friends.
I read all the TTCians blogs yg dah pernah buat IVF/ICSI.
Some succeed in their 1st attempt. Some not.
So semua tuh buat I rasa confident with the decision to try the procedure.
To add to it, now I selalu dengar kat youtube / mp3 all the surah-surah dan doa utk mendapatkan zuriat instead of listening to my favorite songs.
I felt more calm of doing so.
Last week kan our 6th anniversary, since we already been doing readings on IVF/ICSI before I start with the treatment, we've both decided tema hadiah anniversary kali ni is US.
Meaning, kena beli hadiah utk 2-2 boleh guna.
Dis is what I gave him.
Dis is what he gave me.
Beli ni dgn harapan nanti kalau 2ww I tak ler sangap baring saje.
But main game sebenarnya dgn DH sebenarnya lagi stress.
So we shall see how nanti ya.
3. Persediaan Kewangan
Alhamdulillah, for the past few years after I got back from Jakarta, rezeki memang tak putus2 for both of us.
Masa buat decision to come back and work in KL, hati tu terasa jugak whether I could live as it is sbb duit oversea allowance dah tak de kan.
Sebelum ni masa dok kat Jakarta, I tak bawak pon my salary nye bank card ke sana.
DH simpankan. Online banking pon I deactivated.
Survived mmg dgn duit allowance je.
So just imagine bila balik keja kat sini, I lost like half of my income.
Tapi itulah, the more I spent on the fertility treatment, the more I get back.
Besides that, jangan kedekut dgn ur parents!
In my case, I have a mom only.
Tiap2 minggu bawak dia pegi makan kat tempat dia terasa nak makan.
If dia nak baju, I belikan dia baju or apa saja lah..
Kadang2 terdetik jugak "Bulan ni nye saving berkuranglah nmpknya" tp Alhamdulillah tak berlaku.
Mesti I akan dpt je side income dari memana and selalunya lebih dr apa yg I spent kat my mom.
Pastu bersedekah lah.
Give to those who in need.
RM 1 pon tak pe.
In my case, kalau g lepak kedai mamak tu, kalau tetiba org dtg mintak sedekah, mmg I tak bagi.
I tak percaya semua tu sbb byk case kan semua tu sindiket and they have physical ability utk buat kerja lain.
Kadang2 I siap suruh DH offer kerja kat station dia kalau dia tak buta lah.
What I do, time bukak FB tu, kalau ternampak org2 yg share post minta bantuan utk kos rawatan apa2 especially utk babies and toddlers, I will do online transfer direct.
Better that way. If kena tipu pon, itu between dia dgn Allah.
In Shaa Allah Tuhan akan give back to us the money that we spent berganda2.
So kalau untuk kos rawatan IVF/ICSI ni , In Shaa Allah we both are prepared.
4. Persediaan Cuti
Another great news, my CEO has approved my leave whenever I need it for the treatment.
But of course with condition.
Dia punya condition is simple, make sure I can be contacted at any time.
So memang bawak laptop ke mana saja la jawabnya lepas ni.
So what else?
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
#1 Road to ICSI - IVF vs ICSI
Been doing a lot of reading on IVF vs ICSI after the last appointment with Dr. Tasha.
We came to a decision to proceed with ICSI.
Y?
Better success rate.
ICSI is differs from IVF where instead IVF fertilisation taking place in a dish where many sperm are placed near an egg and ICSI the embryologist will selects a single sperm to be injected directly to an egg,
Reason being also because DH have problem with the sperm morphology (abnormal shape).
Cost wise?
Slightly higher from IVF.
So I emailed Dr. Tasha and told her we decided ICSI and to my surprise, she is more worried on my number of follicles!
And that scares me to death!
For real!
She hopes that this Saturday when she re access me, it won't turn out that bad.
So now I am stress!
Like seriously.
Sudahnya?
I online shopping like nobody's business.
Di saat nak kena simpan duit nak bayor bill ICSI, iols g perabih duit lagi ada.
On the other hand, I am lucky to have my online TTCians friends who always there to just listen.
And of course sharing knowledge and experience on what to do.
Dah bertahun setup group wassap, but last March baru berkesempatan nak jumpa.
Grup wassap tu cumalah 6 org saje.
Konon lebih intimate kalau tak ramai org.
Which is YES.
WE became so attached sampaikan bila jumpa the other day, we spent like 4 hours talking macam dah kawan bertahun2 lamanya.
The power of blogging jugak sebenarnya.
Dlm grup tu, 1 dah berjaya dpt anak kembar thru ICSI
1 lagi soooon nak meletop after Ovarian Drilling.
1 baru lps operate buang cyst / fibroid.
1 tu dah ada anak sorang but TTC for the 2nd one for more than 5 years.
1 tu travel blogger yg I kenal dr zaman fotopages kot.
Ohh tetiba rindu nak lepak lagi dgn uols..!
We came to a decision to proceed with ICSI.
Y?
Better success rate.
ICSI is differs from IVF where instead IVF fertilisation taking place in a dish where many sperm are placed near an egg and ICSI the embryologist will selects a single sperm to be injected directly to an egg,
Reason being also because DH have problem with the sperm morphology (abnormal shape).
Cost wise?
Slightly higher from IVF.
So I emailed Dr. Tasha and told her we decided ICSI and to my surprise, she is more worried on my number of follicles!
And that scares me to death!
For real!
She hopes that this Saturday when she re access me, it won't turn out that bad.
So now I am stress!
Like seriously.
Sudahnya?
I online shopping like nobody's business.
Di saat nak kena simpan duit nak bayor bill ICSI, iols g perabih duit lagi ada.
On the other hand, I am lucky to have my online TTCians friends who always there to just listen.
And of course sharing knowledge and experience on what to do.
Dah bertahun setup group wassap, but last March baru berkesempatan nak jumpa.
Grup wassap tu cumalah 6 org saje.
Konon lebih intimate kalau tak ramai org.
Which is YES.
WE became so attached sampaikan bila jumpa the other day, we spent like 4 hours talking macam dah kawan bertahun2 lamanya.
The power of blogging jugak sebenarnya.
Dlm grup tu, 1 dah berjaya dpt anak kembar thru ICSI
1 lagi soooon nak meletop after Ovarian Drilling.
1 baru lps operate buang cyst / fibroid.
1 tu dah ada anak sorang but TTC for the 2nd one for more than 5 years.
1 tu travel blogger yg I kenal dr zaman fotopages kot.
Ohh tetiba rindu nak lepak lagi dgn uols..!
Sime Darby Hitea
Hahaha dah sebulan jumpa baru teringat nak update kt blog.
Ok I'm off for another retail therapy.
Thursday, April 2, 2015
1st Appt with Dr. Natasha Ain
Ok semlm pegi ke Hospital Pusrawi for the 1st appointment dgn Dr. Tasha.
Instead of taking half day EL, I got half day MC sebab batuk teruk and tonsil bengkak.
So sampai kt Pusrawi mmg awal sejam dr scheduled 230pm.
Buat registration then dpt no.
1st patient.
Tp nurse dah bgtau awal2 yg dr maybe lambat sbb ada case.
So waited till 345pm baru dpt jumpa dr Tasha ni.
Oh em gee!
She is beautiful as well!
And soft too.
Lebih kurang sama macam Dr Adilah tp Dr Adilah cam tegas sikit and Dr. Tasha ni lebih lembut lagi bila bercakap.
So start la explain and showed her our previous report.
Her direct conclusion,
Her reason, we've tried IUI before and it has been 6 years and we are both 35 this year.
Why wait?
Somemore, DH got problem as well.
To make it even worse, when she did the TVS scan, my fibroid is still there but alhamdulillah the size has been reduced from 5 cm (last IUI) and now 2.5cm.
And the position of the fibroid pon tak mengganggu ovary.
Also another problem of mine is, the number of follicles.
Semalam dpt tgk 1 je on left side, yg belah kanan tak nampak apa pun.
If I have problems with my number of follicles, makin panjang la citer TTC iols nampaknya.
She prescribed me with supplements to increase the follicles number.
Next appointment will be next Saturday.
What she told me to consume :
1. Multivitamins
2. Fish oil any brand
3. Coenzyme Q10 any brand.
4. Asid folic
IVF cost under Dr Tasha is around RM 14-15K.
Now, am I ready to go for IVF this cycle?
Instead of taking half day EL, I got half day MC sebab batuk teruk and tonsil bengkak.
So sampai kt Pusrawi mmg awal sejam dr scheduled 230pm.
Buat registration then dpt no.
1st patient.
Tp nurse dah bgtau awal2 yg dr maybe lambat sbb ada case.
So waited till 345pm baru dpt jumpa dr Tasha ni.
Oh em gee!
She is beautiful as well!
And soft too.
Lebih kurang sama macam Dr Adilah tp Dr Adilah cam tegas sikit and Dr. Tasha ni lebih lembut lagi bila bercakap.
So start la explain and showed her our previous report.
Her direct conclusion,
Her reason, we've tried IUI before and it has been 6 years and we are both 35 this year.
Why wait?
Somemore, DH got problem as well.
To make it even worse, when she did the TVS scan, my fibroid is still there but alhamdulillah the size has been reduced from 5 cm (last IUI) and now 2.5cm.
And the position of the fibroid pon tak mengganggu ovary.
Also another problem of mine is, the number of follicles.
Semalam dpt tgk 1 je on left side, yg belah kanan tak nampak apa pun.
If I have problems with my number of follicles, makin panjang la citer TTC iols nampaknya.
She prescribed me with supplements to increase the follicles number.
Next appointment will be next Saturday.
What she told me to consume :
1. Multivitamins
2. Fish oil any brand
3. Coenzyme Q10 any brand.
4. Asid folic
IVF cost under Dr Tasha is around RM 14-15K.
Now, am I ready to go for IVF this cycle?
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