#11 Road to ICSI - Check up again

Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow friends!
Maaf zahir batin andai ada nukilan dalam blog ini mengguris hati dan perasaan uols.

Anyway, as expected, my CD 1 falls on 2nd Syawal.
I need to check on my follicles this month.
Emailed Dr. T, she replied, I can either see Dr. Helena or wait till she comes back on my CD 6.

Since I am so comfortable with my Dr. T, I waited for her to come back.

So on last Thursday, I went to see her.
Alhamdulillah found 6 follicles on my left ovary and 4 on the right ovary.
That makes is 10 and the most I've had so far!

Dr. T is happy about that. So now mmg tunggu my sugar level turun till 6 - 6.5 which now current reading is around 7.

Dr. T confirming that my ICSI will be this September but if next month my sugar is good, I can just proceed but we both mintak jgk September since this August me and DH will be busy with his sister's wedding.

Biar lah settle semua tu dulu.

Besides checking on the follicles, I kena jgk amik darah utk check my Vit D together with Hep B, C and HIV test.

Result yg tu tak dpt lagi.

So total for today is : RM 750.
Cost utk Vit D test itself dah RM 320.

The next day tu, DH ckp kat I, abis je wedding adik dia nnt before the ICSI, dia ajak Iols g holiday.
I ajak ler ke Penang tp dia ckp jom Phuket! (again!)
Sayang DH ketat-ketat!

Sah lah Phuket ni jadi yearly vaccay spot.

So arini I kena lah gigih check hotel and ticket semua!
Bila check date yang dipilih tu most likely on O day!
Last year pegi pon time O jgk tapi takde rezeki.
Kita tgk dis year lak eh!

Meh lanje selfie sket! Eh!!

#9 Road to ICSI - AF is here!

As expected, got my AF today!
Called KL Fert just now to make appointment with Dr. T tomorrow.
For sure besok kena bebel because the other day buat sugar blood test, I got pre-diabetic results.
Tapi semlm 1st day puasa try jugak buat home test sugar checking and the result is 6.9mml.

Hopefully the result will keep going down sbb I dah sehabis baik dah control my sugar intake for the past 1 month.

Besok re-assessment day.
Wahai telur-telur ku, keluarlah dengan jayanya!
Really hope the right ovary punye telur dah boleh nampak sbb masa laps ritu Dr. Ng dah betulkan kedudukan right ovary tu.

Then Dr. T pon nak tgk video my laps procedure ari tu.
Uii seram uii!

And most likely I am required to pay my ICSI deposit by tomorrow.

Semoga Allah permudahkan segala2nya besok.
Seriyes I setiap kali nak g jumpa Dr, setiap kali tu nervous breakdown.
Phobia nak dgr bad news because so far there is really no good news we received ever since we started back the treatment.

But somehow, Alhamdulillah we both managed to encounter those obstacles easily.

Memang masa mula2 dpt news, I will surely broke into tears sbb 1 after another kan but DH really has taught me to be come and be positive all the way thru.
Sekarang ni what I did to make myself to stay positive at all time is by reading all the success IVF/ICSI stories thru google.
Dari situ saya cari kekuatan untuk meneruskan my ICSI journey.
In fact dr IG pon saya dah dpt kawan TTC from Australia !

Semoga Allah akan terus menerus memberikan saya kekuatan untuk melalui perjalanan ini till succeed!

Yippie!

Tinggal a few days more before I end my work here in Jekarda. (for this year at least!)

Can start my TTC treatment back dgn Dr. Adilah secepat yang mungkin.
Next cycle jugak nampak gayanya..

Which in a way, cycle lepas adalah gagal lagi.

Anyway, lately ni, I think for the past 3 or 4 cycle, everytime ovulate, I mesti demam.
Demam yg bukan setakat body heat je, ni siap batuk, flu skali pakej.
Is that normal?

Tp kalau dah demam macam tu how la to BD during Ovulation day?

Any suggestion?


On top of that, I am now happy with my weight loss program.
Those dekat IG and FB mmg dpt la tgk my pic posted here and there. Now and then.

I felt great now when everytime I met people, I get them saying, "Eh, qimie dah kurus sekarang!"

Rather then dulu, semua org igt I preggy sebab perut BESAR sgt.

Semoga I akan terus gigih turunkan lagi berat badan ni.
This is the biggest achievement through out the year of 2014.
1 of my effort also in order to get preggy.
Now pushing my DH pulak utk loose some of his weight.

Till then!

CD 3 - Cycle gagal lagi.

Walaupon dah sehabis relax dgn bercuti sana-sini but takde rezeki lagi utk kami bulan ini.
Sad?
Nah.

Redha.

Belum sampai waktunya lagi utk Allah bg rezeki itu kepada kami.
Tp Alhamdulillah.. Allah masih lagi bagi kami rezeki lain di bulan ini.

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Syukur.

Sebut pesal payung Petronas, memang Iols malas nak komen apa2.
Kalau defend lebey kang ada jgk mulut2 yg berbunyik.
Even for ourself pon tak dpt nak bg sanak saudara, adik beradik the payung walaupon berbagai tohmahan dilemparkan kat dealer ckp kami sorok payung lah..

Hebat kuasa payung Petronas ni.

This week akan ke Raub for cousin's wedding.
Eh jalan lagi?

After that, berakhirlah sudah misi jalan2 kami.
I gotta concetrate on my next project.
Yg dah dekat 2 bulan jgk tertangguh.

Nak g jumpa Dr Adilah this month pon dia bercuti haji.
Bersabar je la next cycle.
Dah 5 tahun lebih ley sabar kan, inikan pulak 1 bulan je..

Mungkin ada hikmah dia, who knows.

Rasa tak best.

Semlm ada spotting sket.
Brownish2 color dia.

Today, ai woke up with my body temp rasa suam2 kuku.
Flu.
Throat gatal2.

Hoi, apekah?

Spotting takde.
Perut dah start nak cramp.

My CD 1 suppose to be next Monday.

Argghhh!!

End up...







































I ordered dis!

Puas ati! 

CD 5 - period stopped.

The shortest cycle ever!
Today totally kering kontang.
After my surgery, this cycle yg paling sikit flow nya.

Musykil.

A day before CD 1 tu, my pinggang sakit macam nak patah!
Selalu tak macam tu.
Tapi yang pelik kat area perut tu takde plak rasa sakit.

Then on CD2, tetiba ptg tu ai rasa badan ai penuh dengan angin.
Kepala berat jek.

Tau-tau muntah!
I thought kena food poisoning but after muntah cam ok jek balik.

And today CD 5, setitis darah pon takde.
Ekceli dr smlm dah perasan darah sikit sgt and mlm td pon tak kuar darah.

What is wrong with my period dis time?
Effect clomid hari tuh kah?
Or the ovidrel?