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Salam Ramadhan..

Again I have not been updating my TTC blog due to busy-ness and also I haven't continue my TTC treatment eversince the last ICSI failure.

I only continue my efforts on TTC with some supplements and Essential Oils.

Ni login pon sebab nak tiup sawang ni. Masih ada ke yang follow?

I've celebrated my 36th birthday last Sunday.

Yes 36, 7 years of marriage with no child.

Rasa apa? Sedih? Pilu?
Tipu lah kalau tak sedih.
But I is REDHA.
Bukan Pasrah.

How?
Coz I've tried every possible way dalam usaha nak dapat anak ni.. tp rezeki tu Allah belum nak bagi lagi.
Allah bukakan pintu rezeki lain utk aku.
So accept it.

Yang penting, I am happy with my life right now.
A good husband.
A good family.
A good family in laws.
A good friends.
So what more do I want?

Anyways, I still have 2 Frozen Embrios which I can't decide when to do the FET.
Kalau rasa nak buat next cycle, I would just do it.
Dats me.

1 of my TTC friend received a very good news earlier on. Twinny!
Felt so excited about her and her pregnancy.


So that's about it. Jumpa lagi ntah bila.


SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

TTC Hiccups

Lama dah tak update on my TTC thingy.
I did nothing actually.
I hope it is not a sign of giving up though.

On the other part, hubby agreed on adoption with condition BABY BOY only.
Memang byk yg offer but all girl. I have to reject as hubby has his own reason why he wants boy only.

Mek follow je la.
Tapi masih belum ada rezeki lagi nak dapat.

I've been real busy this couple of months.
I am about to launch my own clothing line soon!

Follow me on IG : courbeeqa or FB : www.facebook.com/courbeeqa

For a start I only focus on Plus Size Clothing only.
My collections starts from size XL - 5XL.

Even dah jarang update on TTC, I still have a small group of TTC friends on whatsapp.
We chatted most of the time. TTC topics would only come once awhile.
The rest? More to travel lah, shopping lah, makan lah, handbag lah..
It's fun though having them around me.
We met for lunch sometimes when everyone is free.
Am glad to have met them here in blogging world.

That is my small TTC group. Familiar faces?

Sayang korang ketat2!

Recovered

A day after the result, we both checked in dekat Le Meridien KL.
Memang dah book sebelum result keluar pon and we are prepared to whatever the result is going to be.

I did cry every now and then after the result came out for a few days.
My CD 1 came 2 days after the BETA test.
Completed 29 days cycle.
Super heavy flow.

My emotions was running up and down during the menstrual days.

But the soonest I can start praying, I prayed hard.
I cried to Him the Almighty.
Mintak diberikan kekuatan untuk melalui semua ni dgn tenang.

And He granted that.

Alhamdulillah.

At first I got to lie to people telling that I am OK while I am not OK.
I paksakan jugak diri ini untuk menjadi kuat.

The easiest things to do besides praying is keep urself busy.
So I continued doing my another baby project.
Siapkan paperwork semua and Alhamdulillah soon akan masuk production.

Then last 2 weeks, I have a business trip to Singapore (again) for 2 days 1 nite.
Heret DH sekali.
We took the trip as a way to release my stress.
Tapi disebabkan exchange rate melampau sgt sampai 3.06, I end up didn't do any shopping.

So kami jenjalan sahaja keliling Singapore tu.
Lepak hotel and spent time together.

And today I am on my CD 5.
29 days cycle lagi bulan ni.

Makan pon macam tak control je lps BETA test tu.
Lps abis cycle ni la kot baru nak control balik.

Supplement pon continue asid folic and metformin sahaja.
Vit D kalau igt baru amik.
Fish oil pon sama.
Multivitamin pon sama.

Saja nak rehatkan badan kejap.

Next month nak ke Penang.
January nak ke Vietnam.

Maybe after that la kot baru decide bila nak FET.

Bye-bye Holiday.

Bulan August is my bulan berjalan.
Penat tp seronok.

From raya tu dah ke Tangkak - Masjid Tanah - Alor Gajah - Rembau.
Balik KL then ke Phuket for 6 days.
Balik dr Phuket, ke Teluk Intan lak sbb ada wedding cousin my hubby.

Week after that dah off to Koh Samui.
This week nak ke Raub and Temerloh lak.
Nak mengantor pengantin lak pastu my mom nak dropped by kat rumah adik dia.
Nak tgk cucu sedara baru dia.

Misi Phuket sah-sah dah gagal.
Tunggu la cycle ni lak which suppose to start tomorrow.

Or takyah menjengah langsung lagi elok lah! :p (pray hard!)

Diet plak has gone hay wire.
Post Koh Samui berat mencanak naik ke 75.9kgs!

Tarik rambut jap.

But in 4 days, I managed to shred off 1.3kgs!
Weeehoooo!!

Tah bila la nak capai berat badan ideal ni.
Byk lagi tu nak kena buang.

Anyway, meh I share sket2 pic kat Koh Samui ritu.

Iols ni kalau dpt dok dlm air, mmg layan abis lah.
Cer bagi tempat tinggi.. mampus!

I enjoyed Koh Samui but not as much as I enjoyed Phuket.
Kalau ikut my rating :

1. Phuket
2. Koh Samui
3. Krabi.

Next Koh Lipe lak.

Beach trip wishlist mmg bersepah.
1 by 1 In Shaa Allah.


Bila lah boleh jadi working at home wife ni??????

Takde idea nak wat closing cmne, bye!

Raya Update

Hahaha.
Dah nak abis raya baru iols terhegeh2 nak update blog.
Dah puas berjalan baru teringat yg iols ada blog TTC ni.

Anyway, baby Made in Phuket tak jadi ya.

But we both really have fun there.

Other than that, biasa lah soklan2 mencengkam rasa tu tetap bertemu jua.
Tapi dis time Iols just senyum.
Malas nak layan.

Tgh dok pk2 bila nak continue treatment balik.

Ni ujung bulan nak ke Koh Sa Mui lak.
September je la kot rasanya.

Dr Adilah cuti bila?

Maybe before start treatment, nak suruh DH g buat sperm test skali lagi after taking Proxeed Plus.
If ok, then continue treatment.

Another IUI perhaps.

Eh update mcm tak update kan?

Anyway, berat naikkkk mencanakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!
Diet, diet, diet or die! die! die!

Seblom raya berat 73.8kg.
Today, 75.5kg.

Hebattt!!
Stress!
Tarik rambut!
Nak nangis tau!
Ni dah start tak makan nasi balik.

Ni gambar seblom xtvt makan start. 

1st Raya pic.

Ni masa kat Phuket.

Nampak tak kembang kat situ?

Stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10th Ramadhan

Syukur Alhamdulillah masih lagi berpuasa sehingga hari ke 10 ini.
On my CD26.
Last cycle we've missed my Ovulation Day.
Too busy and too tired.

Biasa lah nak masuk Ramadhan ni, iols and DH busy membaking.
Alhamdulillah this year our almond & chocolate chips cookies, tart nenas and cornflakes madu will be back at selected Petronas Mesra Outlet.

Ada permintaan, so why not?

So for the past 2 weeks mmg balik keja je terus membaking.
Ari2 tak cukup tido.
Ni time bulan posa, after tarawikh start baking.

Gosh!

But the good news is..
I managed to shred few kilos.
Gila tak?
Siang keja, balik masak berbuka, then tarawikh then baking till 1 am, woke up for sahur at 445 am.

Sahur lak iols just makan 2 biji kurma + vit c + b complex.
Alhamdulillah takde lak perut ni berkeroncong sgt.

Persiapan raya uols cmne?

Mine?
Simple tak simple.
Meriah tak meriah.

But bakal buat keja gile lagi laki bini ni.

If last year we went to Phuket and got back malam raya haji, this year...


Dis year kami akan ke Phuket lagi pada hari raya ke 4!

Hahaha.

For 6 days.
Rasakan.

Kejap pk nak ke Lombok, kejap nak ke Bali, kejap nak ke Singapore..
End up DH ckp dia tak puas berjalan dekat Phuket hari tu so nak repeat balik.
If go Lombok and Bali, confirm ramai gila org local kat sana tu since masih lagi time raya masa tu.
Singapore pon sama.
Tempat lain yg belum pegi macam malas nak pk sbb short notice sesgt so takde time nak buat itinerary sendiri.

So this trip is more to rest and relax.
Stress release trip.

Orang sibuk balik kg, iols g berjalan.
Actually dah penat nak layan pertanyaan org setiap kali hari raya sebenarnya.
Dari sakit hati sendiri, baiklah iols g hiburkan diri.
Hati pon tak sakit.
Poket je yang sakit pon.

Till then!

Bercuti.

Bukan bercuti ke obersee.
Bercuti dr mengambil obat-obatan Doktor.
Bercuti dr berjumpa Doktor.
Bercuti dr berulang alik ke Doktor.

Bercuti tp masih berTTC.
Cuma kekdah kali ni ditukar.

Selesai xtvt mengurut ari tu, iols di suruh mengamalkan bertungku.
Peh tu disuruh layan minum air halia + madu.

So far alhamdulillah, mmg berlambak gila angin dr badan keluar.
Kalau tak dr atas, dr bawah pon selamba.

Besides that, I just consumed shaklee.

Zinc + B Complex + Vita C + GLA + Alfafa.

Berjaya jgk consistent lepas iols setkan alarm kat phone waktu2 perlu makan supplements tu.

Hari ni CD 15.
Kalau ikut calendar, besok ovulate.
So let's BD tonite!

Kbai!

Perubatan Tradisional.

Setelah hampir 5 tahun berTTC, for the very first time, setelah beberapa doctor, beberapa hospital, baik dr KL mahupon Jakarta...


Setelah kegagalan IUI, setelah decide nak rest sekejap this month,


Tonite, In Shaa Allah saya akan cuba cara tradisional pulak.


Nak pegi jumpa this one Ustaz dekat area Rawang sana.
Nk tgk kot-kot ada gangguan yg tidak diingini.

Ekceli yg beria2 nak tolong I ni is my X staff.
Dia dok selalu berubat dgn ustaz ni.
So dia suggest ikut dia.

After the hard thinking (more to afraid sebenarnya), I've decided to agree to join her.
Mana tau there is something beyond our control kan..


Semoga Allah permudahkan segala-galanya.

Too lazy to think.

Kerja menimbun ujung2 tahun nih.
Cuti pon dah abis sbb this year byk amik due to TTC treatment.
Ingat nak sambung this month but bila tgk schedule December penuh dgn weddings sedara mara so postpone lagi.

Only dis weekend je free but mama pulak not well.
Wanted to go for a short vaccay nearby but seems it will be only in KL if mama still tak sihat.

Hubby pon lately sgt2 stress with his business.
Ada ari tu dia ajak I cuti 2 weeks and go to a place where ppl cud not reach us.
Proposed January ni tp something came across pulak.
Kena postpone jugak.

Haish.

I know, we can only plans but Allah decides what best for both of us.
I just hope semua akan berjalan dengan lancar.
In Shaa Allah.

TTC treatment starts back 2014 la jawabnya.
Misi 2013 hampir gagal.

For the past 2 weeks, I've consumed Shaklee.
B Complex + GLA + Alfafa + Zinc Complex.
Lets see the result nanti.

Ada yg nak beli, can use my ID.

Break.

We both decided to continue TTC on normal mode this few months.
Patut hari tu igt nak continue treatment dengan Dr. Adilah, September ni.
Provided that my unpaid leave is approved.

Yes, ai decided nak amik unpaid leave for a month.
Memandangkan senior exec yg patut i handover kerja2 ai ni akan start bekerja Oct, ai kena lah menundakan niat nak unpaid on September.
Boss mintak dia masuk dulu baru apply balik.
Most likely November onwards la baru boleh unpaid.

It's a tough decision, but at this particular moment, ai would do anything and sacrifice everything for TTC.

Tak dapat long break, we opt for short break.

Credits : Goo.gle for the Images.

Yes, we both are going for another round of Honeymoon on Oct.

Percutian tak dirancang.

Last Monday, saja gatal tangan bukak AAGo.

Sekali check la utk date before Raya haji tu.

And, wallah!

Dpt package ke Phuket ni for RM 1.1K for 2 pax.

Flight + Accommodation 4D/3N.

Takde pikir lama2, terus je beli.

Tau-tau time of arriving KL is mlm raya aji! 

Hahahhaha.

And if my AF on time that cycle, time kat Phuket tu nanti is my CD 14 - CD 18.

Who knows kan?

With a month's time to plan apa nak buat kt Phuket tu nanti, ai pon busy la menggoogle apa yg patut di buat kat sana..

Island tour tu mcm tak yah je sbb the other day g Krabi pon dah buat island tour.

Basically the same islands pon.

Macam la nak try water rafting... 

Ada yg dah penah g Phuket? 

Apa lagi yg best besides island hopping, fantasea?

Susah2 sgt, ai layan dok lam bilik je terusssssssssssssssss...