Will I have the chance?

Bila baca good news dr some of the TTCians yg dah berjaya conceived this month, I started to think will I have the same chance as well?

Knowing that I have tried many things in order to conceive for the past 5 years lagi membuatkan I tertanya-tanya.. will I be able to go thru the experience of becoming a mother to my own child?

I have a friend who recently adopt a baby boy.
She is a very good friend of mine.
We've been friends since we were in form 1.

Memang dari skolah lagi she only had her period like 3 - 5 times a year.
Her first marriage doesn't work for her.
Married for like a year then divorced.

Then on 2010, she got married to another guy who is much much older than her with 3 kids.
Since then she tried to get herself conceived.
She was lucky this time as the hubby is super rich!
So money wasn't an issue for them.

She tried IUI. Failed.
Went for IVF. Failed.
Then she had her Ovarian Drilling since she is not producing eggs.
Tried another IVF. Failed.

She gave up.
She told me she is adopting a baby boy.

And now, the baby is with her.
She is now happy with her new life.


So, me?
Ada rasa nak gave up but deep down inside, I still putting hopes.
I'll give myself till next year kot.
Then will consider to adopt.

Perhaps.

Bernasib baik kah aku?

Sometimes bila ada masa I ada jugak la bukak forum, group FB etc pesal TTCians ni.
Ada some posting bercerita tentang masalah being a TTCians dr sudut family and friends.
Masalah nak mengadap orang2 yg bermulut puaka ni.
Ada jgk orang2 itu termasuklah mak mertua, pak mertua, kakak / adik2 ipar etc.

Kira org yang terdekat dgn kita.

Mmg hancur luluh hati mereka2 yg meluahkan perasaan tu.
Sedih I baca sebab walaupun mereka senasib dgn saya being a TTCians, dugaan mereka lebih hebat dr saya.

Saya bersyukur, semua ahli keluarga kami amat memahami yg semua itu rezeki Allah yg belum tiba.
Baik my own family or my in laws.
Tak pernah mereka menghina, mengeji kami kerana tak ada anak selama 5 tahun berkahwin.
Malah, mereka tetap memberikan sokongan dan doa dlm apa saja usaha kami utk mendapatkan zuriat ni.

Namun saya tetap tidak menolak, ada jugak di kalangan sedara mara yg kdg2 bertanya bila nak dpt anak.
How I wish I can answer them tomorrow!

Tp yg paling membuatkan saya rasa lagi sedih, bila baca posting yg menceritakan tentang suami sendiri yg tak nak support!

Hell o!

Ajak g clinic taknak teman apatah lagi nak buat test sbb dia rasa dia tak de masalah dan masalah tu kat bini je.
Pastu, isteri suruh makan supplement pon tak nak sbb dia rasa dia tak de masalah jugak.

Dah kenapa?

Nak letak blame tu semua kat bini ke?

Nama pon suami isteri.. takkan usaha sebelah pihak je?
Katanya, tawakal pada Allah.

Yes, memang semua pon kita kena tawakal dan redha atas ketentuan Allah tp Allah tak melarang kita dari berusaha kan?
Dah berusaha baru kita tawakal.
Ini semua pon nak letak kat bahu isteri.
Tak kesian ke kat bini korang tu?
Bukan semua tu tanggungjawab laki jgk ke?

It takes 2 to tango.

I ni nak kata DH i tu baik sgt tu tak lah but dia mmg ikut je apa yg I suruh dia buat.
Kira macam I buat jambatan, dia lalu je atas jambatan tu.
Tak pe la dr dia tak nak buat kan.

Tak tau la I mcmana TTCians yg ada problem mcm tu nak hadap laki yg jenis mcm tu.
Kesian.
Bertimpa2 dugaan.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah perjalanan kami semua ini.

Mulut Puaka.

A good friend of my mom, yg boleh dikatakan alim jgk, out of nowhere, bagi ai soklan mintak kena bunuh last Saturday.

Masa tuh ai tgh main dgn my niece yg 9 months old.
During my cousin's engagement lak tu.

She said, "Along bila pulak nak ada anak?"

Tersentap jap ai kat situ.
Sbb bukannya jarang jumpa dia pon kan.
Selalu jgk jumpa dia.

Tanpa pandang pon muka dia, ai replied, "Bila Tuhan nak bagi and aunty doakan la jgk spy Along cepat dpt anak."

And she left.

Beli OPK and UPT murah

Last week, ai blogwalking then came across this blog Yohanis.
Nampak dia blog pesal OPK and UPT murah.

OPK - RM 1.20
UPT - RM 1.00

Postage if up to 120 strips - RM 6

So tanpa buang masa, teruslah order 20 OPK and UPT 10.
The next day terus dapat.

Ai have to be more alert dis time due to my past miscarriage experienced.

Thanks babe for selling this, nanti dah habis In Shaa Allah ai order balik.

This is so true kan? YES for me.

Pics from FB.

PMS.

Mine is exactly like dis.

Tak chayer tanye Shuben ai.

Dia mmg terpaksa bersabar setiap bulan bila time ni sampai.

Konpom mood swing punya.

Dis month belum sampai waktu lagi.

Dan semoga tak period langsung selama 9 bulan lagi bagus. 

In shaa Allah.

U ols semua mcm ni jugak ke?