Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Crash, boom, bang!

Macamana tajuk post, macam tu lah hati saya waktu received the blood test results.
Need I elaborate more?

It's BFN!

Sedih?
Yes. But kali ini lebih kuat.
I cried for only few minutes in the car.

Bila dipujuk oleh DH, I managed to set myself calm.
We had our discussion.
DH wants us to give a break before proceed with the 2nd IUI.
So this cycle break jap and continue March.

DH wanted us to improve on our weaknesses the other day.
Me to reduce the fibroid size and DH to improve his sperm counts.

Kendian DH pancing pulak to go for retail therapy.











And we bought this!



After dekat 10 tahun tak tukar katil.
Dr zaman sebelum kawin.
Time kawin pon beli katil baru utk letak rumah my in laws je.

So who knows can, dgn aura katil baru, we manage to conceive naturally lagi ke..
In Shaa Allah.

Semlm masuk kerja pon saya kuat.
And later in the evening ada spotting.

AF is on its way.

Today, AF muncul.

Bohong kalau ai cakap ai tak sedey..
But I have prepared myself, kalau tak jadi this time, I will redha and will keep on trying.
I have to be positive at all time.
I tak nak stress as stress pon boleh membantu fibroid utk membesar dgn jayanya.

Besides berdoa, ai do alot of readings.
Read psl rakan2 TTCians yg dah berjaya mendapatkan zuriat.
What they do, what they eat.. semua lah.
Mana yg i mampu, i ikut.

At least I know when it turns out BFN, i know that I have gave my best shot in trying rather then not trying at all.

Till then..

Thanks to my TTCians friends and friends in Whatsapp, IG, blog, FB yg telah mendoakan saya.
Saya pon berdoa agar semua yg senasib dgn saya dibagi peluang utk mendapatkan zuriat mereka jugak..

In shaa Allah...


BHCG test = RM 91.


6 comments:

  1. amin..moga akak dikurniakan zuriat yg soleh dan solehah kelak..

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  2. Bestnya katil baru! Yang penting tilam tu kena sedap babe. Hehe. Pasal IUI, i've been there, done that. Memang sedih, but kita sendiri yg kena bg semangat kat diri kita. And I know u kuat :)

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  3. semoga diberikan kekuatan oleh Allah dan teruskan usaha yerrr.inshaaAllah same2 kita usaha lagi yeee :)

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  4. u r strong girl...keep on the positive thought... Allah Knows Best, kita get along je la kan ngan Dia punya plan. InshaAllah, I doakan u'll have ur 'positive' soon...amin...

    p/s: Retail teraphy is the best! ahahhaha.... (speaking frm experience ;-))

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  5. amin!...kene kuatkan semangat....don't give up...Insyaallah..rezeki itu milik kita nanti...

    p/s bestnye katil baru...:)

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  6. sometimes, bile sedih sgt tuuu..ade jugak kegembiraannye iaitu dpt katil baru!! hehee. bestnye kak..mane tau boleh dpt baby dengan katil baru. amin amin farhah ni pon xde urgency nak beli katil baru sbb xde yg mendorong nak beli but katil skang mcm seksa je rase. hahaha. take care akak..dont sedey2 ok?

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